Day 1

First night sleep at home was not that great woke up a series of times in cold sweats just drenched from head to toe. At least there was no need for me to wash up. The pain is still somewhat unberable. I feel guilty being that my parents need to do everything for me, I feel almost like I have no legs and I cannot leave my bed. I sat at my wheelchair at my computer desk for the first time for 10 minutes as painfull as it was I really missed being in front of my machine. 

I decided that I am going to order a MacBook today. I feel that without this machine my days will be ridiculousy boring and I will go stir crazy quite quickly and the fact that I have waited patiently to my this buy this machine for years. I think that was just a way to justify it to myself?? haha  Finally 3 "real" meals in one day, my appatite is slowly coming back and eating is getting a little easier. I still feel like a gimp unable to do anything for self except wash myself, pee in a bottle, do some of my physio and move out of bed to my walker/wheelcchair.